Omgosh I'm gonna get that phone.
THAT BIG BLACK LG KU990.
omgosh I still can't believe it.

So Amber wasn't angry at all.
Today the same pain was inflicted on me. Though this time the latter was the locker, which meant more pain, since the knob was poking into my back. Hahaha nvm.
I found out that there are only 12 distinctions in class for history, and everyone was super surprised I was actually one of them. Well, me neither, since I failed like, 2 class tests and 1 GA. Congrats, Celeste. The china girl got first in class.
I realise I actually have an unknown fetish for crime genre books. Pardon me, but I am not turning violent. It's just that the court trials are more worth reading than any others. And trust me- when you're addicted, there's no way out.
I'm crapping.

I don't know why I made Amber angry in the morning, and was feeling lousy for the whole of today.
We made muffins today ((:
And discussed about the class outing. In the end we decided on Sentosa. Today unknowingly many people have hurt me physically but nevermind XD
But still, I still feel pain, like the chair that crashed into my stomach, pinning me to the wall.
Imagine that.

I must really say everyone did pretty well for our mid years. Surprisingly, History, which I thought was gonna be an epic failure turned miraculously into an A2. But still, one may still not get the best of both worlds, and albeit I mugged like crazy for math, I only got 59. One more mark to B4! Because of this 1 mark I have to return to school during the holidays. Great.
The rest of my grades, I can safely say, are above b4. bleh. I'm still so disappointed in my math.

Bought a book yesterday. The Portrait of a Lady by Henry James. One of the Vintage Classics actually. Up till the 64th page I still have absolutely no idea where the story is leading. I keep telling myself it's a classic; a classic. That's why I have endured to the 64th page.

Feeling sort of empty now. As if I were raid of my feelings. I'm not emoing, but still.. Think I'm tired. Of all that's going on. So many things undone; I don't feel like doing anything at all, really. Thinking about it just makes me sick.

I need some distraction
Or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

I finally know what jc wears the blue pajamas (as quoted from Amber) : CJC.
This morning's bus ride was pretty eventful I would say. I felt that it was more squeezy than usual, perhaps because today is friday, which explains why a big handful of crescentians were too lazy to walk (me being one of them ^^). Me and Amber were the more kiasu ones, so we boarded the bus first and were squeezed to the back of bus. Amber sat down at the only seat available and I was forced to stand in front of this cjc guy sitting down. At first I thought it was okay, until even MORE people boarded the bus and I was squeezed to the point that I was practically standing between his legs. I know it sounds damn wrong but if you will, take it literally. I guess nobody minded (though I did) since I couldn't even turn my head without kissing somebody's back.
So this exceptionally jerky bus travelled from A to B. I was trying to tuck in my uniform since it became untucked when we were running cross the road and I accidentily brushed my hand on his thigh. Great, wth, so I just pretended I didn't know, though it was really damn obvious. And for the finale, I almost fell into him when the frigging bus turned roughly. All I could remember was myself apologising over and over again and Amber laughing at me. So mean.
Today we got back our papers! But what we got was only half the papers. I think I did quite okay considering my science jumped from a D7 to an A1. I work really hard you know. hahaha jkjk.
Nevermind, wasn't funny. Was kinda boring, today. A group of c3 people spent majority of the school hours playing daidee. There was this minor conflict when they got too noisy and qtpie had to scream to get them to shut up. Naturally, they retaliated and Amanda had to stop them.

Why do we have to learn congruency anyways?

With no relations to the previous post whatsoever, I shall rant on the boring talks today.
1. YOG
YOG? Okay, I know the three values or whatever but what has that gotta do with us? They are hitting the points perserverance and the sorts but that shouldn't take up 45 mins of our time right. Round of applause for the person who talked about this word for 45 mins. You just broke the record.

2. Don't know what company's talk
Basically it's about skincare and mostly about teens, with a big portion dedicated especially to how we sit in class. Posture. Poise. That's the point. She even had a demonstration. And this girl (I forgot who) from another class was her dummy. Poor thing, her face got smeared with I don't know what and everyone was staring at her trying not to laugh and choke. The lady said we could go in front and take a look if we couldn't see from our places. You mean like, the whole cohort of sec 2s crowding around 1 miserable chair? I don't think so. No. And so due to the lengthy part on posture, we were late for reccess by about 15 mins.

3. Sex Ed
ahhuh. This is what the sec 2s have been waiting for (excluding me *ahem). I can confidently conclude that it sucked. cuz the other classes touched on pda and homosexuality while our class and a few others attended the irc and teenage pregnancy session. When it's our turn for the homo stuff (yeah) it'll be in october. Now you get why I say it sucked. The teenage pregnancy thing wasn't so bad; we watched a short but meaningless video talking about things we already know so there's actually no point. We were laughing at the actors and the way they portray the scene. Seriously, it looked damn in the 70s. The teacher finished that off with statistics from America? Hello, we're in Singapore. The world doens't revolve around USA you know. And we do know the angmohs are the extremes so it doesn't really make sense to compare with them.
And irc. We have friends. But they asked this question: why do you always think that the unknown person chatting with you is an old man? Especially those balding ones. Ming Anne was crapping about this gangster pretending to be a young girl and this other gangster posing as a young boy. Can you imagine if they met? I kept on thinking of the possibilities of what'd happen if they did, to stop the boredom from draining in.
Done.

4. 987 invasion.
Now that's the only un-boring thing today. But something really spoiled the mood. They came to talk about smoking. From this 1 hr I found out that majority hated Jonas brothers and I am definitely in the majority. And this Lady Gaga? I haven't even heard of her and they're screaming as if she was the hottest guy on earth. On the whole it was interesting I guess. But too much screaming. Much too much. Ms Ong even encouraged a short but torturous screaming session after the talk. They did the Crescent cheer, and Celeste mentioned that 'oh, they actually know how to spell'. Yeah, I didn't know before.

Okay, I'm outta breath. Stop writing, freak!

Bye

It is a joy to post after a hard day.
There are some days when you find there is so much to do and so little time. Today is one of those days. You might have felt helpless under that weight; is it possible to breathe? The answer is maybe. Or a definite no. You tell yourself it isn't bothering you, but you know how tired you are. Stop lying to yourself. Continue building on your tower of deception and one day it'll collapse, as you will.
This requires me to sit down and sort out my mind. What is undone? What should I do? To find out the cause of my distress. And I realise, I'm putting too much pressure on myself. The desire is too great, much more than I can withstand. Imagine the waves crashing against a wall; pushing against the stone. Then in a while, a short crack appears. No one bothers about it, since it's not very obvious. But a few days later, the damage spreads to the four corners of the wall and it gives away. By then it is too late. No use regretting you didn't mend the crack. It wasn't your concern in the first place. The pieces of what used to be the wall lie forsaken in the depths of the waters.
This is the end of it. A silent piece of memory that nobody is willing to pocket. That nobody bothers to remember.
It's high time I bucked up.

You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

Back and tired from a whole day of events.

First off, in the morning there was assembly in class and Ms Ang didn’t come to class. Which allowed us to laugh at the guy saying the pledge through the speaker. His voice sort of jolts lol. At 7.45 all the sec 2s assembled at the parade square for short briefing then we cheered and stuff. Following that we went to the field for inter house games.
It was tiring but certainly FUN ((((:

Especially the one called spinning heads if I remember correctly. You were supposed to hold on to a baton and turn ten rounds while resting your chin on your hand. In fry, both girls got the spells. The starting one turned five rounds and stopped a while. From what I could see, she stumbled a bit. Gosh I really pity her cuz when she was running she ran sideways and actually fell. Thus Ms Ong had to help her to the other girl, who also spinned a few rounds and started walking like a crab. In conclusion, both the fry girls got uber giddy and hence we lost the game. But it’s okay though, they tried their best (((:

We also played over under. When we passed the ball over our heads and between our legs. Hell this was fun. We were all moving backwards cuz there was no space to pass the ball and the house leaders were shouting like crazy to get us to move in front. Joan shouted herself hoarse.
Lastly was the hoola hoop thingy, and we were supposed to pass a hoop through the whole train of us. Joan helped them a little lol. And Genevieve kept on shouting “where got like that one, cheat lah!” But we ignored them hahaha. Fry got tons of bonus points because we moved to our houses the fastest, we had the least people wearing pe shirt instead of house. A wave ended the games. Fry was the worst off as we were in the centre, so when the wave became continuous, we had to stand and squat again every 2 seconds and scream like an idiot. Of course we did not forget the Crescent cheer (((:

After that had pbl and we were practically doing nothing. In the end Ms Ang gave up and brought us to the canteen to play Wii. I didn’t play though. I was sitting there and stoning. Sneha was also obviously in a daze and using the name tag pin to scratch my sleeve. Then Ms Ang came over and asked “Sneha you look like you’re in a daze and why are you molesting Iris?” Lol! So we had crap session plus drawing on arm session and Sneha ended up pinning all the name tags on my sleeve.
After school went with Clarice to Lavendar to buy her rank stuff. Walked for about 20 mins to the coffeeshop then back again. Then went to Bugis lunch. When eating with Clarice, I realised how slow I actually ate. We ordered the same thing and by the time Clarice started her fries I was only halfway through my burger.

That damned Pepsi. Triggered my breathing problem again. All the way back home I must have looked super constipated cuz I couldn’t stand straight and I was breathing very hard. Then I dragged myself home and almost died.

Okay enough.

LOVE FRY :}

Bye

HEY

Hi I’m back (((:

From practice phew.

Coach made me do squats again. And that leads to another day of limping since I played badminton yesterday and my leg wasn’t feeling that well this morning already. So I now have bruised arms and this big cut I got from yesterday’s badminton session.
How bad can this get? There’s inter house games tomorrow and I most likely won’t be able to play because of my limbs. Unless a miracle happens and suddenly I can walk without limping and even straighten my arm at all (((((:

Went for a quick drink at coffee bean with Yixin, Weiliang, Yu Xuan and Elffred. Sadly the rest had to rush home due to exams.

FLYING WITHOUT WINGS
Westlife

Everybody’s looking for that something One thing that makes it all complete
You find it in the strangest places Places you never knew it could be
—————–
Some find it in the face of their children Some find it in their lover’s eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings When you found that special thing
You’re flying without wings
—————-
Some find it sharing every morning Some in their solitary lives
You find it in the words of others A simple line can make you laugh or cry
—————
You find it in the deepest friendship The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means You’ve found that special thing
You’re flying without wings
————–
So impossible as they may seem You’ve got to fight for every dream
‘Cause who’s to know Which one you let go
Would have made you complete
————-
Well, for me it’s waking up beside you To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you In any given time or place
It’s little things that only I know Those are the things that make you mine
—————
And it’s like flying without wings ‘Cause you’re my special thing
I’m flying without wings
————–
And you’re the place my life begins And you’ll be where it ends
I’m flying without wings And that’s the joy you bring
I’m flying without wings

-end-

On a last note,
HAPPY 14 SHIMAN! (((:

FINALLY
Exams are finally finally finally over. I still can’t believe it. Math was horrendous, but after counting the marks, I reckon I can still get an A2.

Well forget it. After school went to Tiong with Amber to get Shiman’s present. We spent like 20 mins or so waiting for Amber to decide on a cookie, and another 20 at comics connection. When you think of Shiman, automatically you will link to comics connection. lol. Then walk all the way from Tiong back to Redhill again. Damn tired sia.

After that went up to her house and sat for while. Her mum was at home so I went back early. Looked damn pissed. I mean her mum. So don’t disturb lah lol.
Halfway back home it started to rain and I cheonged like crazy. On the way I met Rui Ying and this guy whom I think likes her. (I saw something) lol. I shall mind my own business.
So I think I’ll slack for the rest of the afternoon cuz I so deserve it.

So well, went Macs for breakfast in the morning and I woke up at 10 plus I think.

Man I have NOTHING to talk about. Just feeling random and wanted to post something. lol. Was at my grandma’s house for dinner last night and before that I was coerced into jogging 8 km at the nearby stadium with my cousins. I still can’t believe I managed to run 8km, serious. I barely scraped through 2.4 and I actually made it to 8.
I guess I’m just going to church later and will be staying over at my Aunt’s.

Okay enough.

Bye

Literature!

Though I would very much prefer not to talk about it. I wrote 8 whole pages- 4 dedicated to Dara and Jantu, the next 4 to some girl and her rival. The unseen poetry was damn hard. Many of us most probably could feel ourselves literally squeeze our brain juice just for a point.
But finally it’s over The last paper is on Tuesday and it’s math. omg I’m so scared I won’t get at least an A. It would be really demoralizing if I scored less than 70, because I put all my time and hard work into math, especially algebra.
I guess I have nothing to say anymore. Have to start preparing, I’m going over to my Grandma’s for dinner.

Bye to Dara forever.

I most probably won’t miss you.

FROM NOW ON PLEASE VISIT www.divinecadence.wordpress.com FOR BLOG.

I will post here occasionally though.

But I guess occasionally = most likely not going to post here again so wells (=

Well what can I say. Science was okay, but I still got a couple of questions wrong. For history, I was stuck at the first one. I just don't get why we are expected to memorise ten chapters and they only test like, less than ten pages. Application doesn't make sense anymore in this case. I slept at 2 yesterday night for these 6 pages? I read 4 chapters for SEQ, but only 2 pages were tested. My evidence doesn't tally with the point. I think SEQ was also quite okay, since I was able to state the 3 reasons why Singapore left merger with Malaysia. Thank God they tested merger.

After the exam ended Ms Ang made a weird statement: All those who need to leave can leave. I mean, isn't everyone supposed to leave? I tried explaining the funny part to Ming En but she kept on saying "What..." Nevermind.
We decided to take mrt and before that Ming En, Bella, Elaine, Alison decided to buy some stuff. We were sorta noisy on the train and that girl from Raffles kept on staring at us lol. Ming En was imitating the sound when the door of the train closed, and I must say, she succeeded.

But anyway, have to study for lit now. I'm supposed to read till chapter 13 but I'm still at chapter 4. Good luck to me :)

As expected, I spent 1 hour writing what I have to write, and the remaining time was used to rewrite my letter twice.
Paper 2 was damn hard!
I was writing until 5 mins before the paper ended.
And I actually finished it. Not to mention how many didn't, but I must say I was pretty scared I couldn't.
But oh well, it's over so I shan't speak about it.
I hope Geography's gonna be not so boring next semester.
Cause History totally sucks.
I don't mean the teacher heehee :)
He's really nice, and can you believe a teacher can actually refrain from scolding the class for an entire year?
Seriously, Mr Tham has never even gotten close to angry with us before.
Even when Ms Ang just finished scolding us, he still laughed.
How great is that.
Nevermind.
Shall revise science and history now.
Though I doubt myself.

Why.
Why the fuck does history and science fall on the same day?
The date-setter must have been out to get us, or it was probably just his/her bad day.
But that is not in top reasons 1-3 why he/she set it like this.
And we get 2 hrs to write 2 compos?
No need for time management.
You can probably spend the last hour laughing at the humongous proportion of extra time given. Period.
I just can't reread the Clay Marble.
Reading it was a feat already.
Rereading? I don't wanna start.
Clarice said she read the part where the sound of bells could be heard or something along that line and she gave up.
Coincidentally, that is the first sentence of the book.
Dammit.
History isn't easy to study, I just realised.
Mr Tham made it sound so easy in class, we get bored.
And that's where we get caught.
So now we're totally messed up.
I think now the only remedy is a time machine.
We can all travel back to pri 6.
And I can work harder to get into NYGH.
Not now.
But dreams remain as dreams, no matter how hard we wish they come true.
Ugh I'm digressing as usual.
I think I should get back to figuring who actually founded Singapore.
Anyone willing to help me with that?

90th post! (Finally)
Yesterday was a breeze.
Spent the whole morning reading and studying for history.
In the afternoon went down with my mum to practise volleyball.
You know what, sometimes I play till I just feel like giving up.
Those are the times when your hands can barely stand to touch the ball.
At night I went to Vivo for dinner.
Nothing much, and I bought a book.
Salem Falls by Jodi Picoult.
(I'm seriously underperforming)

be it by chance or by fate,
does it really make a diff?